Well. I have made it through 10 weeks of this…
Weigh, wog, weights, blog, eat, log…rinse and repeat…
I have consistently met my goals…I’m not a slacker, I’m doin the work, taking baby steps (anybody seen What about Bob?)
At first the weight came off…but now. Nothing. People have encouraged me to keep on keepin on…and I appreciate everything that was said. I am taking it in and thinking about what to do next.
Meantime…yesterday…I just got tired of it. So I gave in and said…what the hay. I am going to eat for just one day like I used to everyday.
AND so I had a day like the old days…when I was a just a very hungry caterpillar.
I had a chimichanga (soft…not fried…at least I had sense to do that; ) I had chips with it, the fried ones, not baked. Sour cream, quacamole…cheese on top. Then later, I had half of a calzone, it was a veggie one, but still I ate all that cheese…ricotta, and mozzarella… And that is not it…oh no…later I had popcorn…the buttered kind…definitely not the smart stuff. BUT wait there is more…then I had milk duds..a whole box of them to go with the popcorn and a couple of dove chocolates to close out the day.
It was, I believe, a full fledged fit of rebellion. My first one since I started in May. I think my discouraged state of mind was just an opportunity for my impending PMS to take over all reason.
But, don’t worry…today I was back on track.
I noticed a couple of things when I abandoned the process for a day:
I felt pretty bad after I ate all the fat for lunch.
Didn’t like waiting so long to get hungry again.
I definitely didn’t enjoy walking with all that stuff in my tummy, forget running.
And although I did enjoy the popcorn and the milk duds, I still got compulsive with them and kept eating them, even when I was already satisfied–just like the old days…didn’t like feeling so out of control…it was embarrassing.
My conclusion…
It is not that great to give into your desires. There is a trade off. I want to lose weight more than give into my lust for food. Being rebellious doesn’t do a bit of good. You have to trust the process and press in. Keep at it even when things don’t seem to be changing or the scale is not moving. I know all of this…but it is the putting it into practice that is the hard part.
When I was walking yesterday and thinking about my weight loss…I was also thinking about all the people here that have really lost the weight…Kama, Bette Jo, Dorey, Rachel, Angelia…and all the others that inspire me. I wondered about them, did they have days like this? What did they do to make it through…?
I also had a major realization of just how admirable they are. What a blessing it is for me to be able to glean from them.
So grateful for all of you…that you understand and can hold my hand and help me through! Thank you!!!!!!!!
Weigh, wog, weights, blog, eat, log…rinse and repeat…
I have consistently met my goals…I’m not a slacker, I’m doin the work, taking baby steps (anybody seen What about Bob?)
At first the weight came off…but now. Nothing. People have encouraged me to keep on keepin on…and I appreciate everything that was said. I am taking it in and thinking about what to do next.
Meantime…yesterday…I just got tired of it. So I gave in and said…what the hay. I am going to eat for just one day like I used to everyday.
AND so I had a day like the old days…when I was a just a very hungry caterpillar.
I had a chimichanga (soft…not fried…at least I had sense to do that; ) I had chips with it, the fried ones, not baked. Sour cream, quacamole…cheese on top. Then later, I had half of a calzone, it was a veggie one, but still I ate all that cheese…ricotta, and mozzarella… And that is not it…oh no…later I had popcorn…the buttered kind…definitely not the smart stuff. BUT wait there is more…then I had milk duds..a whole box of them to go with the popcorn and a couple of dove chocolates to close out the day.
It was, I believe, a full fledged fit of rebellion. My first one since I started in May. I think my discouraged state of mind was just an opportunity for my impending PMS to take over all reason.
But, don’t worry…today I was back on track.
I noticed a couple of things when I abandoned the process for a day:
I felt pretty bad after I ate all the fat for lunch.
Didn’t like waiting so long to get hungry again.
I definitely didn’t enjoy walking with all that stuff in my tummy, forget running.
And although I did enjoy the popcorn and the milk duds, I still got compulsive with them and kept eating them, even when I was already satisfied–just like the old days…didn’t like feeling so out of control…it was embarrassing.
My conclusion…
It is not that great to give into your desires. There is a trade off. I want to lose weight more than give into my lust for food. Being rebellious doesn’t do a bit of good. You have to trust the process and press in. Keep at it even when things don’t seem to be changing or the scale is not moving. I know all of this…but it is the putting it into practice that is the hard part.
When I was walking yesterday and thinking about my weight loss…I was also thinking about all the people here that have really lost the weight…Kama, Bette Jo, Dorey, Rachel, Angelia…and all the others that inspire me. I wondered about them, did they have days like this? What did they do to make it through…?
I also had a major realization of just how admirable they are. What a blessing it is for me to be able to glean from them.
So grateful for all of you…that you understand and can hold my hand and help me through! Thank you!!!!!!!!
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